Being optimistic is too much work. I just need to start being realistic. And just accept what’s in front of me, instead of fighting for what I think is right.
What I might think is right, is wrong to someone else. I have to find the balance.
Being optimistic is too much work. I just need to start being realistic. And just accept what’s in front of me, instead of fighting for what I think is right.
What I might think is right, is wrong to someone else. I have to find the balance.
I hate the fact that I have to admit that I’m not man enough for something or someone at the moment. And the reason for that is that I’m TERRIFIED. It’s not just the oh I’m afraid kind of terrified. It’s more like a phobia at this point. Getting rejected, being hurt, being let down. I’m terrified of all these things at the moment.
Mistakes are meant to be so you can learn from them. And then there are mistakes that other people make that you should learn from too.
I’d like to say that life is full of options. And what most people don’t understand that these options are like doors, constantly pulling you into different rooms, different situations, leading to new doors. These options usually don’t have a rewind button, or a take back clause. They are absolute, and you have to deal with what’s in the next room and try to move on through another door. These options create the road that our lives travel.
There is no such thing as a wrong choice, that’s just something that you can perceive for yourself. These options are things you can regret, or love, or resent, or enjoy. But they are never wrong. They simple just lead you down different paths of a life that you can constantly make for yourself. The reason why I don’t believe that we’re stuck in the lives we live is because we have a choice to make it better, or to go down a different road.
You’re options are endless, therefore the road of your life has endless numbers of branches to follow, each path leading you into something different, each door keeping secrets that you can choose to discover or not.
There’s a point in everyone’s life where they feel like there are no options, or nothing to really do about the situation they’re in. But there is always a hidden door leading to a better place. It’s up to you whether or not it’s worth it.
The most important piece to all of this is remember who you are as a person and holding true to that person. These options? They can change you, mold you into something else, scare you into being someone you’re not. And yes, it is hard to not change or adapt to the rest of the room. But that’s something we all have to fight through. You want to be you, not someone else. You don’t want to base your life off of some one, or of something. You make to let your mistakes and your triumphs determine the person that you’re going to be.
These choices, there is no right or wrong. There is only this road or that one, and which ever one follows after that. Sometimes you do make mistakes, but that doesn’t mean that the choice was wrong, it means the way you handled it could have been better.
That’s why we believe in second chances. Because we are constantly learning, and becoming better people.
You always have the option of choosing your own path, creating your own door, creating your own possibilities. And to me, that is the road best traveled. And it’s because you’re doing everything for you. You are creating your own door ways, molding your life the way you want, by your terms. You take the most pride in this option. And that’s because this is an all in for you. You’re doing what you want, you are you’re own person. And no one can really tell you you’re “wrong” and that is was a “mistake”.
I believe that you make your own choices, and you live life the way you want to live it. Sometimes there are things you can’t control, but does that the rest of your life is uncontrollable to? No, it doesn’t. This door way, was only the beginning, and from there you make you’re choices. Sometimes there are things that you just don’t see coming, and it throws you down a path you never thought you’d take. But when you’ve finally fallen from grace, the only direction you can go is up.
It’s all about choices. It’s all about your options, and what you do with them. No one has to live with the decisions you make except for you. So don’t base your decisions off of some one else, don’t base them off of hypothesis’ or assumptions. You live with these decisions, so do them for you, not for someone else.
In the end, it’s always going to be you.
Because in reality you don’t know what you really have till it’s gone. You won’t know what it means to truly miss something until you don’t have it any more. I already feel this way because of everything that I deal with. But I need to just stop talking and walk away and see where that gets you. I think that you really don’t know how to miss me or anything. And that’s what I need to get through my head.
Bad news on top of bad news on top of bad news. And the only advice I’m getting is stay positive? This is fun, this is exactly how I wanted to live my life. By clinging on to hope for a better tomorrow.
